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i see angels above me, i see demons below me, fighting over heaven.
i loved her more when i was sober.
i don't want a second chance.
love starts with that of a flickerin' cigarette
i swear i could feel your love before i knew your name.

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I cannot remember a time when wearing a smile


didn't feel a lot like a mask nor can I recall


when being content wasn't a costume I have to wear.


There's this sound that echo's inside of me,


it occurs too often for me to consider it healthy;


but occasionally I do pray that it would go away.


It's just hard to forget just how pretty the melody


of her laughter had been; and so now insanity


is something I pray for daily, almost religiously.


What I wouldn't give to just give up completely


and bask in the glory of the collapse of my psyche.


It's just my will power is much too strong for any


type of destruction, despite how hard I try and try.


For years I bathed in self loathing hate and pity


but some how even in that I seemed to fail absolutely.


So then here I am, left sorting out my broken memory


like a garbage picker and still I remain unlucky


because all I seem to discover is those happily


ever after moments; and so anxiety picks away at me


as I try to figure out just why I feel only misery.


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