Susan Stone Susan Stone
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At last I've worked how to comment. I got a lot of help from British National Health service. I now it's the only way out but you must go to the doctors and ask him for antidepressants. I always struggle to find the world but when I was 18 they just flowed out of me.

Susan Stone Susan Stone
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Sorry I made a coupe of mistakes Should have said 'I know it's the easy way out' and 'I always struggle to find the words. A Freudian slip I think.

Susan Stone Susan Stone
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I used to have persistent intrusive thoughts. I had them for 12 years and they were a torment to me. Just one pill and it was like flipping a switch--olanzapine.

Susan Stone Susan Stone
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I'm very secretive. I could never talk to a psychiatrist--some people can't. I can't reveal my fantasies to anyone and for some people it isn't recommended. Dragging up old pains can cause some people to commit suicide.

Susan Stone Susan Stone
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It seems to me that your doctor is inadequate. You need medication and if you were in England you would be helped more. I'm on olanzapine and venlafaxine. You are probably bi-polar. Go on the internet and find out about it.

Rebekah King Rebekah King
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You've missed the point entirely, I have physical medical problems, not mental ones.

Susan Stone Susan Stone
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I'm sorry. I was just trying to help.

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Happiness is not something I can just find. Miserable is not something I can just stop being. How can I be happy when there's nothing to be happy for? When the things that used to make me happy only leave me regretful and longing for simpler days? This is the first time I've even written anything in... forever. Writing used to be the thing that made me most happy. Now I'm struggling to find the words. 2 comments


I'm at a loss as to how I'm supposed to help myself. They all say it's in my head, I have anxiety, I'm stressed, I'm depressed, I'm worrying my life away. How am I supposed to simply stop doing and being these things?! I can't just flip a switch and be okay again, that's not how it works. It's hard to heal when the world just wants you to feel bad. 1 comment


Everyone is happy when they're little, but something happens to us as we grow. Society does something awful to us that makes us hate ourselves. It takes away our light and leaves us in the dark without so much as a candle to light our way. People expect so much of each other, they expect us to fit into a mold, to do and be the same as everyone else. How can anyone be truly happy if we're all forced to be something we're not?


My doctor recommends this book, "The Happiness Trap" to me. So I read the first chapter. Immediately I'm overwhelmed, not by how right it is; I'm overwhelmed by the vast amount of words the author can use to tell me how to stop feeling the way I do. I reach the end of the chapter and I'm just as lost as I was when I began. After all, they're just words on paper, and how on Earth can words on paper help? They don't, we just think they do when they're cleverly worded.


He wants me to see a psychologist. Great, exactly what you want to hear at 20 years old: "Go talk to some quack who'll charge you $300 an hour to listen to your problems". There's a reason I don't talk to people about my problems, because they are mine, I am the only one who understands them and other people don't know how to help me because they are not me. If I don't know how to help myself what makes them think they're qualified to? I don't believe in Psychologists. I don't see how talking to a complete stranger could possibly help. 1 comment


Stress is a part of life, it is a constant emotion with never-ending sources. Anxiety is not something that can be helped by talk. Everything anyone says about it just makes me angry and more stressed. Why do I have to be the one who stresses so much about everything that it makes me physically ill? Why do I have to have all of these medical problems because of the way other people make me feel? Because the world is a shit hole that's why, and there's no point in pretending everything is sunshine and rainbows when it's not.


This is how I feel inside. I'm pouring my heart out because I don't know how else to cope anymore. I can't cope, I don't cope and I don't know how to get better. I don't know where to start. I need help, but I don't know what kind of help will help me because I don't even know what's wrong! I don't understand what's happening, and the more people try to explain it, the more overwhelmed I get. Should I read the book? Should I see a psychologist? What should I do? How do I be happy when all I feel is miserable? How can I enjoy planning my wedding when all I feel is stressed? How can I not worry when there is so much to worry about? What should I do? 3 comments


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